a blog is an awesome study in identity

Five years ago on this date, this was me.

Sometimes Young Anna was embarrassing, but I really admire her ability to see meaning in everything and her desire to be so intentional about living a good life. The part about the professor who was taking care of his paraplegic son and girlfriend stood out, because I completely forgot about that, five years later, and only remembered him being rude and insensitive. Also, the parts about "living on the surface" stood out to me, because I'm reading a book on meditation, and it talks about living on the surface of life and letting your mind run out of control because you are unaware of how to be in charge of it.

Yes, of course this is true for me. Two Years Ago Anna explains it pretty well here.

So, I was reading this book thinking, Yes, this sounds so good. I would love to have control of my thoughts and therefore live a life where I can be refreshing to others instead of entirely consumed with my own spiraling mind. Then the book mentioned twice a hurt elbow, just as an example of some distracting physical ailment. I laughed out loud, because I was sitting there reading the book with my arm in a homemade sling.

Yes, there is something to be learned here. There is something to be learned everywhere. I'm still skeptical of my ability to meditate.